The particular post that did it for me was titled “Handling Your OT Case”

http://workabletechnology.com/?p=216

I’ve visited David’s site in my research. Do you have a direct link to the article you mention?

I’m glad you’re out of the CoS, out of an abusive relationship and in a relationship with a great guy like Geir. (I may disagree regularly with him but that doesn’t mean I don’t see and respect his many admirable qualities.)

I was lucky and left the CoS quite unscathed by bad experiences, so when I read some of the things that have happened to others I feel shock and dismay at what Scientology has become.

When it comes to responsibility I believe we are responsible for our own actions. That makes an abuser responsible for his actions to you. It makes the senior responsible for incorrect or abusive actions on a junior. I can understand the double-think idea that we are responsible for everything that happens to us but I disagree that it applies at the level of humanhood.

As for similar experience, I had none while inside the CoS. I discontinued my close connection to the Church because I could see the writing on the wall, so to speak; the direction of things to come. That was pre-GAT1. I didn’t know it was DM who was responsible for the decline I HAD witnessed until reading Marty’s blog.

Some years after I left I began experiencing pain but recognized it as stuff from my case. I had a choice: go back into the squirrel cage or try handle it myself. I chose the latter. I already knew I could blow pains and stuff but had considered doing that would be self-auditing that would eventually cost me – if I returned to the squirrel cage. I knew what I was in for if I returned (Clear status cancelled, NED to be eventually run – horrid thought!) and knew that was all just a bad idea. So I applied what I knew. I used the early data of Scientology to blow this stuff. It became easy and I could blow multiple pain points at once. It got to a point I had literally none left. I applied the same technique to the other thing that had emerged – feelings of rage. And blew those, too. I thought they were just old engrams in restim, or whatever, so were “nothing to be concerned about, just blow them.”

It wasn’t until about a year ago when I read an article by David St. Lawrence that I began to understand what was going on. The data he supplied filled in the gaps and gave me a much better understanding of my mind and case.

I consider his blog and the data he presents as invaluable and empowering. He presents a way to actually achieve being responsible for your own case in a very constructive manner. I hope you will check out his site at least for the data.

However you tackle the charge and scars of the past, I am sure you will ultimately get through it. You’re now in an environment where your basic strengths and understanding will help you sort out the past and allow you to make any gains you desire.